After a one year wait, I finally got the chance to swim with the dolphins.
The hardest part of the wait was living in TeI- Aviv, Israel about 5 hours drive from Eilat where the dolphins are living, close to them but not so close… My mother came to visit me from abroad and we decided to make this trip together. There I was in my twenties, and feeling like a first grader, as I was getting closer to make my dream come true.
There are many things that I can see now looking back on what I was feeling, from the thirty years old perspective. It is the most natural and yet amazing thing that as we walk through life we see more, we see it differently. At that time, dreaming was taking a bigger part of my life then the reality, time none existing and it didn’t cross my mind that with the time passing there are things that you cannot do. What I mean is that when we are young we can be everything, with the passing of the time we understand that there are options that are not open to us any longer.
So, the night before my swim, I drove my mother crazy as I was getting out of my skin…my dream was about to come true. I had no idea what to expect but I was open to the magic. Do I need to tell you at this point that I did not close my eyes that night? I was twisting and turning and …dreaming with my eyes open. With the first light of the morning, I was up on my feet now going in circles and circles in the room, running to the window to see the big blue water and wondering if the dolphins were so anxious to see me as I was in seeing them. I smile…For everything that I did that morning it was translated in questions about the dolphins. We had breakfast and I was wondering if the dolphins had breakfast as well? I was trying to figure out what do dolphins do instead of taking a shower, they are already in the water! I was wondering if they can feel anxious, as I was.
Around mid day we got to the Dolphin Reef, where I was about to meet them. In my anxiety I was hearing the voices around me I could see my mother talking to me but I was in my own world. I wanted to meet the dolphins so that they can give me the magic so I can heal. Finally …it was time to enter the water and meet them.
I will not let you wait, 30 minutes later I came out of the water and started to cry. I did not see a single dolphin! How could that be? I was sad and mad at them because they let me down. I did not know what to think about this experience. How come? They did not feel how much I need them?
It took me time to understand that sometimes things are not happening how we plan them, that sometimes it is better to let go of our expectations so we can really see. Today when I look back I understand that I was not ready to meet them, yes I was anxious to meet them but I was not ready to meet them without expectations and with an open heart.
Ramona ,



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